Not quite from outer space, but hey, it’s been a few years huh?
And today I’ve found myself looking to relieve some stress, so I turned back to writing. Hell I even posted on FanFiction today! (Yeah I know, amazing huh?!) Do you wanna know why? Well I’m gonna tell you anyway so… here goes,
I first found FanFiction because of fifty shades of grey, it was fun and frivolous and I could be anonymous there. No one could judge me (or so I naively thought, but if you’ve read anything else on this blog you’ll know that’s not entirely true, curse you trolls!) and I could find my creativity doing something new. I even created my own Facebook page as my FanFiction alter ego, and this here blog too. I also found a large community of women like me, inspired by E.L. James to write about love, maybe not your run of the mill boy meets girl they fall in love and live happily ever after stuff but then it takes all sorts to make the world go round. I found my solice in a FSOG FanFiction group, run by other creative women (and men!) at one point I even helped run the group before becoming a complete cow and throwing all my toys out of my pram and leaving the group over something completely silly and irrelevant. I knew for months I was in the wrong but I’m a proud woman and well it’s hard to admit to people, ones that had started off as strangers but had slowly but surely become my friends. In the end I did go back, and was accepted back into the fold, after an apology on my behalf. I learned a lot from that and stayed quietly on the sidelines only really commenting infrequently, so infrequently that I logged out, of it all, no twitter, no Facebook, no blog, and no FanFiction.
For about two years… until recently when another ff group had a similar incident practically imploding on itself, as is often the cast when you get a lot of people in one chat all passionate. I was not a member of this group, and sadly I’m glad of that as I know how that shit goes. On the plus side it’s given the original group I was in a bit of a shake, we all seem to be awake now and wanting to share again which is brilliant, I feel like I’ve got my little FanFiction family back. It even inspired me to write, not a lot mind you but 800 words is more than I’ve written in years!
I don’t want to sit back anymore, I want to get back to writing, it’s fun, calming and it eases my stress levels while I’m being creative, I need this in my life again. I may still post infrequently but isn’t that the point? I only post when I’ve got stuff to say, words that need let out, that don’t care if no one reads them. This blog is about me, my point of view, I don’t conform to the norm, why the hell should I? I have a voice it may be a quiet one or sometimes it may be a loud one, does it matter? All that matters is me using it, and I will! Trust me I will, 2017 is my year, and it’s not going to be a quiet one!